27 Friday Sep 2013
23 Monday Sep 2013
Its a long walk
13 Friday Sep 2013
Sleep well, young Thor
12 Thursday Sep 2013
10 Tuesday Sep 2013
Posted Emotions
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09 Monday Sep 2013
Posted Katia and Jurgen
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ADHD, coping, dreams, family, fight, gaming, hope, motherhood, sorrow, videogames
Thoughts
Clouds passing by. Birds in the sky. Sun peeking out. Grass on the lawn. Trees in the wind.
Yes yes yes, i get it! Thank you!
She continued cooking, while her daughter kept working on her homework. Slowly, tediously, as always.
The potatoes were boiling, exactly as the livingroom. The boys fighting yet again over the incredibly annoying wii game. She got tired of it and told them in clear words that they better stop it or the next place the wii would be was the garbage!
No, her youngest son said, you told us you would sell it.
Ok, then i will!
Back to dinner. chicken frying nicely in the oven, time to cut some veggies.
Daughter still over her homework, getting frustrated now, starting to bang her books, groan at the pencil, and scream: WHY IS THIS SO HARD???
Listen to me. One more time. You are to make sentences in english. They do not need to be long. Try to think of something you like.
But i dont understand WHAT I AM to write!!!
Short sentences. You know what a sentence is?
YEEES!!! IM NOT STUPID!!!
Ok. Try one.
BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE!!!
Crying now. Tears flowing free.
Calm down. Ill help you.
BUT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!!!
WHAT am i to write?
A short sentence. ANY sentence. Try to think of one. I just said some to you. Use one and then use that one to think out more.
WHY CANT YOU TELL ME WHAT TO WRITE?
No. That would be doing your homework for you. You know that. I can give you examples, and help you going. But the work is yours.
Her daughter throws the books away.
IM NOT going to do homework with you!! YOU dont understand ANYTHING! Ill wait until daddy comes!!!
Ok. Ok. Just calm down.
NO I WONT!!! IM GOING TO MY ROOM!
The door slams upstairs.
Back to the dinner.
Thoughts of floating clouds. Being a bird flying away. Just leaving it all.
Thoughts of being on a path. Walking along it while birds sing. looking ahead of her there is a river. She wants to go there.
The potatoes are done. Dad comes home. Quick explanation to him.
Daughter still crying, coming down.
Now you have to do your homework.
Yes i will. But you must help me. daddy.
But dinner is ready so we will eat first.
NO!!! I WANT TO DO HOMEWORK NOW!!
IM GOING OUT AFTER IM DONE!!!
NO. Dinner first, then homework, then you can go.
NOOOOOO!! I WONT GET ANY TIME WITH MY FRIENDS!
IM NOT GOING TO EAT, YOU CANT FORCE ME!
She puts plates on the table. Leaves the daughter to him. Shuts it out dont want to listen.
Thoughts of that river floating by. A boy with a wooden boat he made himself passes by. She is asked to join and willingly comes. Sits by the river and watches him sail his boat downwards. She thinks she can hear him laugh.
She puts the glasses and forks and knives. Puts the hot food in their trays and bowls and serves her family.
Sits down to eat with them.
Her daughters eyes dark and angry.
She doesnt see them. Shes by that river, listening to its melody, and the boy with his boat laughing as it floats downwards to the sea.
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